Comradeship—the company and friendship of others with common aims.
I like this definition of comradeship. A great deal. The company and friendship of others with common aims. Common purpose. Company with a purpose. Company. What’s the opposite of company? Without company?
The Cambridge Dictionary: without company synonyms: lonely by oneself, solitary, unaccompanied, unattended, companionless, secluded, withdrawn, reclusive, hermitic, unsocial.
The standout word is unaccompanied. Yes. I’m unaccompanied. As are many billions of people and I seek them, you, if you are one of them. To accompany you. To make a small and definite change to your life.
I speak my truth. I am not ashamed or afraid, nor am I a victim. I describe my aloneness to understand it and to contribute to the world.
My aloneness causes me to suffer. The suffering is something I try to welcome. I grapple with it because I know it is a great teacher. The suffering will drive me to change aspects of my self and my life.
I suffer in the night at the moment (I wake up and feel fear—thank goodness for Georgia) and my nightly suffering shadows me in the morning.
Some nights, some mornings, I suffer more than others. Last night/this morning was bad. But I do have a strategy: Ritual. I swing around and lean on a routine set of rituals to distract me and provide structure. To progress.
One of the rituals involves listening to a Jordan Peterson Short. I like the way his mind works. I listen to him because he is erudite and experienced.
Today he spoke to me. His words inspired me to be the person he’s talking about.
And wanting to be that person made me realise that Hope is not lost.
And that I’ll make it through.
I am alone so my light shines. It is clear. It is bright. So I will follow.
